This is something I wrote in a bad spot. I’m posting it because I feel like it could help people through times like what I went through. I hope you like it.
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You don’t see me.
You never will, not even in spirit.
You don’t see me,
you stare right through me, like I mean nothing.
I’ll breathe alone,
Because I know that I can’t feel this pain,
Not on my own.
Not after this, not after everything.
Not then, not now.
Remember how you called us back from there?
Not when, but how.
Not of those memories, but of all else.
Yes, I’m still here,
Still ten, still Jessi, still waiting for you,
Too scared to call,
For fear of being rejected again.
You have your lives.
I guess I shouldn’t need from anyone.
After all, well,
I hate having to be vaigue about this…
Frankly it hurts.
We tried, overstepped and are giving up.
My whole life left.
I guess I shouldn’t be surprised, but…here?
You? With all this?
And I always wonder what we did wrong.
What happened now?
What did we do to drive someone else off?
We were the blamed,
Growing up, everything was our fault.
Is it enough?
Will it ever be enough, for you all?